f r i e n d s .

I realised,
only when you're in need of help do you realise who your true friends are.
And I'm blessed to have true friends indeed.
So thank you my friends,
for staying by my side when I needed you.
I couldn't be more thankful.


Cause he's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar,
the only thing that keeps me wishing on a wishing star.

i h a t e y o u .

When I look at how pathetic you are,
I felt so sorry for you.
So what if you're at the top of the world?
So what if your results are so much better than the rest?
So what if you're rich?
So what.

You're all alone.

You might not know it,
but your character really sucks.
I mean it.
I have never, ever, in my life seen anyone as bitchy as you.
You might easily be able to call yourself a bitch playfully,
But I don't think you know that you're in fact, really one.

Just a bit of exaggeration here,
My eyes will burn just by looking at you.
My hears will hurt just by hearing your voice.
I think you screw up everyone's life,
and you're a plain waste of oxygen on Earth,
so you should just get out of everybody's way and go kill yourself or something.

I really hate you.
Very, very much.


I just wanna run right through the rain,
I just wanna dance right through the pain.
I just wanna feel that rhythm, feel that drum,
And let my heart beat louder, let my heart speak louder than my head.

d a m n e d .

What kind of shit have I just gotten myself into.
All tangled up in this huge mess,
I can't seem to get out of it.
I am so confused.



Everytime I am about to forget,
You would appear and everything starts all over again.
Thanks, for making me revolve around you, idiot.

l i f e .

I don't know why my life starts to tumble down, down down.
What did I do?
Everytime someting good happens,
I feel scared, for I know,
when something that good happens to me,
something bad would definitely fall on me.
No doubt.

This is life, for me.
This has always been how my life would be.
I would have to forever live up to people's expectations,
Always existing, never living.
Never living for myself,
Doing what i do not because I want do,
but because I need to.
I don't want it this way.
It's my life.


Funny how you're dead, people start listening.

d e s e r v e .

Oh well, I really cannot stand you.
Call me a hypocrite, call me superficial.
Whatever, seriously.
Your words are cheap,
not meant to be heard, not meant to be valued.
You are more than just a girl,
you're a despicable one.
I've never seen anyone as mean as you.
Never.

So don't blame me for doing this to you.
Because you deserve it.
You don't deserve my kindness.
No, you don't deserve to have anything from me.

I feel so overwhelmed with work.
Somehow, it seems endless.
I find myself trying to finish and clear the workload,
but it just comes flooding in before I can clear it all away.
It's been long since I've felt the feeling whereby I know I have done everything I needed to do.
I want to feel that again.
And I am trying hard to find that feeling.

There was once I told myself silently in my heart,
I promised to sacrifice everything up for him.
I prayed, hoped and wished every night he would one day reciprocate my feelings for him. But no, it never happened.
Now, I prayed, hoped and wished every night that it did.

I d o n ' t w a n t .

Sometimes, I wished I hadn't taken on this responsibilty.
I wish there was someone out there,
who knew how I felt,
and would save me out of this horrible feeling.
The feeling of being trapped out in some kind of circumstances,
which you know you would never be able to escape from.

I wish people could understand out I feel.
I wish people would know that I did all that,
But I didn't mean to do all those things.
I'm serious.

I just want to be myself.
I don't want to take on another different persona,
so different that I'm uncomfortable with it.
I don't want to wake up each day feeling so fed up with myself.
I don't want to live each day knowing that I'm wasting time,
Knowing that I can't make a difference.
I don't want to go unheard.
I don't want people to treat me like I'm invisible.
I don't want to live such a life.