I feel so overwhelmed with work.
Somehow, it seems endless.
I find myself trying to finish and clear the workload,
but it just comes flooding in before I can clear it all away.
It's been long since I've felt the feeling whereby I know I have done everything I needed to do.
I want to feel that again.
And I am trying hard to find that feeling.

There was once I told myself silently in my heart,
I promised to sacrifice everything up for him.
I prayed, hoped and wished every night he would one day reciprocate my feelings for him. But no, it never happened.
Now, I prayed, hoped and wished every night that it did.

I d o n ' t w a n t .

Sometimes, I wished I hadn't taken on this responsibilty.
I wish there was someone out there,
who knew how I felt,
and would save me out of this horrible feeling.
The feeling of being trapped out in some kind of circumstances,
which you know you would never be able to escape from.

I wish people could understand out I feel.
I wish people would know that I did all that,
But I didn't mean to do all those things.
I'm serious.

I just want to be myself.
I don't want to take on another different persona,
so different that I'm uncomfortable with it.
I don't want to wake up each day feeling so fed up with myself.
I don't want to live each day knowing that I'm wasting time,
Knowing that I can't make a difference.
I don't want to go unheard.
I don't want people to treat me like I'm invisible.
I don't want to live such a life.